This blog has been up for nearly a year. In that time, I feel as though my mission has changed. Being a relatively new atheist when I started the blog, I used it as a vessel to air my feelings and clear my head. Such a massive shift in perspective takes some getting used to, and having the blog as an outlet helped me tremendously.
But now I feel differently about atheism. To be sure, religion still figures significantly in our culture and I am all too happy to discuss it as it comes up. However, it is no longer a struggle in my mind. Two years ago, when the struggle over atheism vs religion was in full force, it was practically all I thought about. Decades of religious thinking (if you can call it that) left deep impressions in my everyday routines and habits. The spectre of hell (and heaven) was a constant pressure that, as a Christian, informed practically every action. As a young atheist, it took a considerable amount of concentration to shake the thought. Happily, hell feels about as real as Neverland - it has become a dried-up husk of fiction, drained of reality and presence. Likewise with God, Noah, Jonah and all of the characters in the Bible.
It sounds bad to say that my mind is made up. Atheists often pride themselves on having open minds and being willing to change their points of view if the proper evidence were presented. This is true for me as well. Having an open mind does not mean that I believe everything, or even that I believe nothing. And I am still open to the idea of a god, provided appropriate proof, although I don't spend time actively looking for reasons to believe in god. I no longer think about it much at all, to be honest. I still read books about atheism and I still read a ton of atheist blogs, and, when the situation arises, I am proud to tell someone that I am an atheist. But I no longer look for fights about god or not-god. I no longer really care what people think.
I care far more about what I think. And I care more about what other people do, which is why I won't give up the atheist aspect of this blog. And although I think that the world would be a far better place if religion just disappeared, there are plenty of things that are more important to me.
It is kind of scary to write this, because I don't know what my focus will be. Atheism gave me a simple narrative to follow. Last Fall's political circus provided plenty of fodder, much of it atheist-centric. But now, if I abandon atheism as the prime mover, I don't know where I'll go. Most likely, what I write from here on out won't look too different to those who follow along. I'm still an atheist blogger, but I'm trying to expand beyond that.